Dear Michaela,

Happiness is so out of reach and I am mostly divorced of grace, though steps are taken, after --. You can feel there is nothing besides biology, and how could the resurrection occur? But at times, we feel the touch (Grace) of God, and hence - God exists. And the resurrection? even if the exact details mentioned which are very few regarding, how Jesus looked then, at what age he appeared, with what clothes etc. are to be doubted by some, notice that the pupils did not recognize him at first.

It all had a dreamlike quality, say, like someone told me that she dreamt meeting her father like they never separated, like he never died, and she woke up full of tears. So I can say to myself that this is a Mystery, for example that another body appeared, but with the same essence, like in a dream when a person is known to you, yet he has another Identity. It has some deeper level truth.

One can see that in the last 2 thousand years (and particularly in the last 300 years), since the holy spirit landed upon humanity after the resurrection, we at least have a chance to win gradually a victory over evil - there is a real development or progress, that did not exist in the tens of thousand of years before that. There is a process of progress and a process of regression, but now a direction is added. Yet nothing is taken for granted as automatic, we must be alert.
Michael